The World as I Know it

It's been a very long time I know but here I am, trying to summarize an entire month of new experiences. It's gonna be very difficult and quite possibly very long but I can't really help that.

So, first off, my room-mate. Her name is Alicia and she reminds me of the girls back at my high school, sort of like Mandy. Nice but not overly, ya know. We don't talk that much, which basically means almost none at all. Her boyfriend comes over a lot which is fine I guess. He stays here but he's nice and they don't do anything while I'm in the room at least, which is good. I feel comfortable in my room; it literally has become my home and it's happened so fast. It's not quite like home, I still worried about keeping my room clean (my side) and all that but I'm still comfortable enough in it to sleep in nothing but a t-shirt and panties. Alicia and I haven't had many problems, except that I tend to come in late because I stay up with my friends and she goes to bed early.

Now for my friends. I have so many more guy friends than I did back home, I'll start off with them first. My two best guy friends are Brian and Ryan. Brian actually lived here, this is his hometown. He's such a nice guy it's amazing. He has the stupidest taste in movies like Monty Python and the Holy Grail, which I watched with him. (Guess what? It's not as funny as everyone says it is.) He's also very religious (this guy's never been trick-or-treating for religious reasons) and he's kind of, well not pushing, but getting me in the direction that I want to be religiously. I'm actually going to church here, and I actually really like it! Ryan lived near Elmira but moved to Syracuse this summer. He's mean but in a funny way, kind of like Beth. He keeps calling me a whore, kind of like Beth. Basically, he is the male, Asian version of Beth. I absolutely love him but he's going through some hard times right now with addictions but Matt's helping him. Matt (or as we sometimes call him, starky) is Brian's room-mate. He's also religious and sometimes judgmental but you get the feeling that he's really trying to help people. He's a tech. ed. major. AJ is so annoying but funny. He keeps hitting my butt like there's no tomorrow. I swear, if he wasn't gay, I'd have slapped him like 400 times already! He also calls me 'whore' but now his favorite term is 'brazen little hussy.' To him, 'bitch' is a term of endearment. I love it. Nick is so cute and little. He's quiet and shy and such an amazing artist. I think Beth and him would get along well artistically at least. Then there's my girl friends who are pretty much insane as well. When I first met Bridgette I thought she was a sweet, innocent little girl. Now I know better. Instead, she has the dirtiest mind ever. But I love her for it. Then there's Traci, who I've talked about before. And Shonda, Traci's room-mate who's hilarious and quiet and studious all at the same time. Stephanie, though, is just one of those people who drive me insane. When she's happy, yay! She's extrememly happy, but when she's not I seriously do not want to be around her. She's so negative all of the time and it definitely brings me down.

For my classes, there all right. Some are extremely boring. Like Cultural Anthropology, which I fall asleep in all the time. Others are really cool, like my Latin American Civilizations class. My Honors classes are going pretty well. The only problem I have is going to bed early enough where I don't die in the morning and doing the reading. It's pretty much annoying!!! I hate doing the reading because they're always so long and so boring! But on to something fun...

Yeah, so I know I've changed a lot in the first month of college. I can already tell and sometimes I'm not sure it's for the best. I mean, I'm not doing drugs of sleeping around but, at times, I feel like a whore. I really, really do. I don't know what else to describe it as. I've only kissed 1 guy here (& in my life) but I get cuddly around others. And although I talked to Brian about it (he wasn't the only one I was doing it to but it felt worse b/c he has a girlfriend), I find myself going back to the old ways, before the talk. I don't know what to do about that. I don't want to give other people the impression that I really am a whore but I don't know what to do anymore. I'll have to think more about that. Anyway, Beth, this long drawn out thing was basically for you b/c I got your off-line messages. Here's your post.