The World as I Know it

I just feel like writing, ya know? I really want to journal and I will, but I will put some of the less personal things up here cuz I miss you my wonderful blogging buddy!!

This weekend was good. Really good I feel. Things have been bad every weekend and finally, finally, this one is good. I thank God for that; I really do. I still have a ton to do cuz I neglected it all week but I can do it; I know I can. But yeah, so people have been acting differently this semester, I've noticed. We're all dealing with a lot of different things and with people gone, it's changed our group dynamic and people are re-adjusting, people are coming in and out. We all seem to be super busy and things seem to upset us easily, perhaps partially because of exhaustian? I don't know. I wish it wasn't like that, but I understand. I've had some bad moments, months, in the past too so I get it. But hey, to whoever, if you feel like crying and/or talking or whatever, I have a nice shoulder. It's a little small, and can't offer you a ton of advice, but it will listen. Cuz sometimes I need someone there too, ya know? Everyone has to lean on someone. God made us into social creatures; we need people to be there for us and with us. We need to feel needed and loved and cared for. Ya know?

Anyways, short post I know, but I've got some mroe things that I'm gonna journal and then I have a ton of other things to do so peace out girl scouts!!!!
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I'm back in the OZ and thus far, it's been one of the worst starts ever. I'm working so much and I have so many things I have to do. I'm so stressed out and overwhelmed, it's just all so exhausting. And the few hours I have to spend time with people, they're out doing something else with other people that they know that I can't go to, even though I said before that I wanted to. I don't have that much time to spend with people so when we have plans to do something, and they cancel at the last minute, what am I supposed to do? When they just leave me behind or something? I'm alone and I absolutely hate it. There are thousands of people around me every day. But I only talk to one of them every day. How am I supposed to maintain friendships if I never see them? I know that some of it is my fault. But they can go to wherever they want together when I'm working. I know that's selfish and everything. I know that this is whiny and complain-y, but how else am I supposed to let this out? There's noone around.